Growth is THE coolest feeling in the world. It's exciting, scary, challenging, liberating. It's a whirlwind of every single emotion possible, which scares people, and yet I am such a believer and lover in change. Change is as good as a holiday. I swear by this. Fear doesn't hold me back, and since I turned 30 last year (30 is the absolute bees knees by the way) I have done everything my heart has wanted, I travelled, I did my teacher training, I spent the festive season with my family (my everythings!!!), I travelled some more. And then my favorite part, I started teaching, ahhhhh if you could feel my souls rays of happiness! It's a strange feeling when you finally give in, and be like "okay universe I give up, take me where I'm meant to go". It pushed and pushed me, and I rebelled and rebelled until finally giving in to its whim. What on earth took me so long, I don't know, stubbornness, a desire to want things I actually knew I didn't? Probably.
Moral of the story is that the burning desire within you never goes away and the more you try and suppress it the more out of control the fire rages. Listen and trust your heart, your heart-mind knows you and knows what path you're meant to be on. So let me tell you a quick tale of a prophecy - 5 years ago I met a man in Bali who told me amongst walks in rice fields that I would end up studying meditation in India one day. I laughed...me??? Meditation, ummm no, my mind never settles and is always over active so sitting in meditation is challenging to say the least. The idea was a nice one but I was more interested in the physical side of Yoga and learning more about that. Skip to the present and attending my first Om Chanting ceremony, meeting the most amazing lady ever and this past weekend completing my Atma Kriya Yoga Level 1 course. My mind was like a firework show of knowledge explosion - hello growth - HELLO PROPHECY. I didn't think much of what my Yogi in Bali said until this weekend and the realization of what direction I am actually headed in! The universe is just fascinating. India has come up randomly a lot lately and I just know inside I have to go, I have to be there soon! But you don't rush these things - I've learnt and am still learning patience, it look 5 years to finally get to where I am. The moment you accept yourself. You grow.
Namaste yogis xxx